Thursday, October 21, 2010

GOOD NIGHT FROM DREAMWORLD

For some reason I spent a lot of time this hospitalization thinking about my dreams, my aspirations... etc.

What I want is a fantasy, but I believe fantasies can be realized. This will either be my salvation or my bane.

Meanwhile, a song that captures my heart for the time being:

Monday, October 18, 2010

GOOD NIGHT FROM WAKE-UP CALL

Yes, I am recovering from Borderline Personality Disorder. But I do indeed still have it. A rude awakening.

Saturday, October 16, 2010

GOOD EVENING FROM THE PSCYH WARD

"Dasein always interprets itself in terms of its existence -- in terms of a possibility of itself: to be itself or not itself."

Martin Heidegger, Being and Time
Going to the hosp. always presents to you, two sides of the same coin -- hope, defeat; compassion, anger; life, death.

What has always been difficult for me during hospitalizations is not the depressing atmosphere, the shitty food, or even the nurses who have to watch me pee so they can make sure I don't purge my meal. What's most difficult is existing between these and other similar dichotomies, then having to decide: "Which direction will I choose to go?"

Sunday, October 10, 2010

GOOD MORNING FROM BLAST FROM THE PLAST

I listened to this song all the time when it first came out a decade ago. It was the only thing in the whole world which expressed my distaste at the lying response, "Everything is wonderful now."

So, for all those who grew up thinking there was something "wrong" with them, knew they were growing up too fast, or lived at a home filled with chaos: this song.