"Dasein always interprets itself in terms of its existence -- in terms of a possibility of itself: to be itself or not itself."Going to the hosp. always presents to you, two sides of the same coin -- hope, defeat; compassion, anger; life, death.
Martin Heidegger, Being and Time
What has always been difficult for me during hospitalizations is not the depressing atmosphere, the shitty food, or even the nurses who have to watch me pee so they can make sure I don't purge my meal. What's most difficult is existing between these and other similar dichotomies, then having to decide: "Which direction will I choose to go?"