Thursday, March 10, 2011


This past weekend, I spent Friday afternoon to Monday night visiting Berkeley for an admitted students event.

Not only am I excited about the opportunity I've been given to study in this particular department, I've also come to a point in my life that I've been working so hard for, for the past three years of my life. Getting my PhD is finally a reality. I'm proud. And not in a pompous way. It's not the school or the department that I feel the urge to boast about. I'm proud that despite the hardships I've dealt with, the difficulties with my health, and other miscellaneous challenges in my life, I've achieved a huge dream of mine.

But I still have my reservations. I am notoriously horrible when it comes to living away from Los Angeles. I might have to be away from my boyfriend, who is a large part of my support system. I will have ton build an entirely new treatment team. But really, it's the idea of living alone that I am nervous about. I know the monsters in the closet will seem that much more horrifying. Eating will become an even stronger addiction that I already know I'll succumb to, willingly. Slight mood changes will become debilitating.

I'm trying to focus on the positive though. This IS my dream, indeed, and I hope to maintain it as such. No need to turn my dream into a nightmare this early in the game. I hope setting up a strong plan will help ease some of the anxiety I'm having about this. If any of you have suggestions, I'd be more than happy to hear them.


  1. Well on the bright side, Berkeley is lovely! And just a BART ride away from San Francisco. Oakland...well, not so cool. :P

    Congrats on getting into Cal because it is a very hard school to get into! I live in the bay area -- love it here. But SoCal and NorCal are very different, that's for sure.

  2. Thank you :)
    The two are very different, but I'm very glad I get to stay in CA for grad school, and not have to move across the country.

  3. Wow phd - that's awesome,
    Thx for commenting on my blog. I'm glad I found yours. Take care tia @