Sunday, September 11, 2011

I'm still here.

I apologize for not writing in so long. I feel like this coming week will be the first in which I'll feel a bit more settled down. Between classes and teaching, I feel spent. I still have my thesis to finish, and I have no idea how I'm ever going to get around to that. It has me feeling a bit discouraged, but I guess I'll just have to go with the flow for now. I wish I could plow through it, but I'm so tired, that when I have spare time, I just want to stare at Netflix on the comp. Well, maybe I will be able to get around to it this week since things are starting to get more routinized.

As for my ED, it's been out of control. That's also probably a huge part of why I'm so tired. The past two days or so I've only b/p once a day, but since I've moved up here, it's been about 3-4 times a day. I spend all my free time binging and purging. I started a new med two days ago (Saphris), which is supposed have less of the weight gain side effect that most antipsychotics have. Hopefully, this means less cravings, which will equal less binges and purges. Who knows, maybe that's even why I've only purged once a day this weekend.

Everything else is more or less okay. It's hard to say. I'm either too busy or tired to really know how everything else is doing. I've cut more since I've moved -- once a week. Not bad, but more than when I was at home. So I guess that means something. I'm not too sure. I'm in the process of getting consistent professional support. I suppose I'll have more of a chance to delve into things then.

I wish I had more of an exciting update, but sometimes boring can be okay.